Monday, May 27, 2013

Time Before the Lord

From The Sayings of the Desert Fathers:

A brother asked Abba Sisoes, “What am I to do?”

He said to him: “What you need is a great deal of silence and humility. For it is written: ‘Blessed are those who wait for him’ (Is. 30.18) for thus they are able to stand.” 


Abba Sisoes said, “Let yourself be despised, cast your own will behind your back, and you will be free from care and at peace.”

I think, yes, I need these things right now.

I am going away for a few days, and I hope to spend some good quality time with the Lord.  That is all I want. I have been so…drained. Despair looms, and that is not a good thing.

But the Lord awaits! I am not able to spend much time before the Blessed Sacrament where I live. I could, but it takes much effort not to be offended by the surroundings. I’m not that strong. In fact, I am very weak.

So off I go, to pray, to meditate, to be healed by the Lord.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me!


  1. Hi, I have a question. You are married with children at home I think? I just found your bog and it is late so I do not have time to read it all. I am widowed with children. I too am called to a life of prayer and reparation. Does the church allow mothers with children to become professed hermits? I cannot find that information anywhere online. God bless you! Gwendolyn

  2. Gwendolyn, I am married, but my children are now grown. I am not sure about the answer to your question, but I'm pretty sure the Church would not allow a mother with children at home to become a professed hermit; the vocation to family would, I believe, have to come first. But children grow quickly, and when they become adults, you would be able to become a hermitess. Also, you could at this point in your life become a consecrated widow, I believe. I am not sure how that is done. Even the anchoritic profession is not something done often these days. If you feel you are called to a life of prayer and reparation, you can begin to live that life even if you have to live the life of a secular at the same time. That's what I have done. It's not always easy, but God makes it possible. I hope this helps!