From The Sayings of the Desert Fathers:
A brother asked Abba Sisoes, “What am I to do?”
He said to him: “What you need is a great deal of silence and humility. For it is written: ‘Blessed are those who wait for him’ (Is. 30.18) for thus they are able to stand.”
Abba Sisoes said, “Let yourself be despised, cast your own will behind your back, and you will be free from care and at peace.”
I think, yes, I need these things right now.
I am going away for a few days, and I hope to spend some good quality time with the Lord. That is all I want. I have been so…drained. Despair looms, and that is not a good thing.
But the Lord awaits! I am not able to spend much time before the Blessed Sacrament where I live. I could, but it takes much effort not to be offended by the surroundings. I’m not that strong. In fact, I am very weak.
So off I go, to pray, to meditate, to be healed by the Lord.
Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me!