Monday, May 27, 2013

Time Before the Lord

From The Sayings of the Desert Fathers:

A brother asked Abba Sisoes, “What am I to do?”

He said to him: “What you need is a great deal of silence and humility. For it is written: ‘Blessed are those who wait for him’ (Is. 30.18) for thus they are able to stand.” 

And:

Abba Sisoes said, “Let yourself be despised, cast your own will behind your back, and you will be free from care and at peace.”

I think, yes, I need these things right now.

I am going away for a few days, and I hope to spend some good quality time with the Lord.  That is all I want. I have been so…drained. Despair looms, and that is not a good thing.

But the Lord awaits! I am not able to spend much time before the Blessed Sacrament where I live. I could, but it takes much effort not to be offended by the surroundings. I’m not that strong. In fact, I am very weak.

So off I go, to pray, to meditate, to be healed by the Lord.


Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me!

2 comments:

  1. Hi, I have a question. You are married with children at home I think? I just found your bog and it is late so I do not have time to read it all. I am widowed with children. I too am called to a life of prayer and reparation. Does the church allow mothers with children to become professed hermits? I cannot find that information anywhere online. God bless you! Gwendolyn

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  2. Gwendolyn, I am married, but my children are now grown. I am not sure about the answer to your question, but I'm pretty sure the Church would not allow a mother with children at home to become a professed hermit; the vocation to family would, I believe, have to come first. But children grow quickly, and when they become adults, you would be able to become a hermitess. Also, you could at this point in your life become a consecrated widow, I believe. I am not sure how that is done. Even the anchoritic profession is not something done often these days. If you feel you are called to a life of prayer and reparation, you can begin to live that life even if you have to live the life of a secular at the same time. That's what I have done. It's not always easy, but God makes it possible. I hope this helps!

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