It happens every so often. All I can pray for is to leave the world; all I want is to enter into the transforming union. I pray for that daily anyway, but sometimes the desire is so much more intense.
Abandonment to Divine Providence…yes. But still, the desire to…well, I can’t even say it. I’m not supposed to think that way.
I guess it’s not a good thing. Doubts creep in. Demons plant bad thoughts.
Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me.